insights to my life

2007-05-23T23:32:00.000+08:00

lol ... its been a really really looooong time since i last updated yeah ?? lol ..
well anyway no one really read my blog at all ?? rite ?? lol ... no point updating anyway haha

skool wasn't like interesting at all lol .... been slacking since day 1 ...
guess i got to start picking myself up or sumting ?? cause the exams are dued next week ... oh well ... gonna fail it real bad ... i have got everthing to lose ... case i don lke to study haha ....

One thing that never fails to get me coming to skool everyday without fail is my frens haha ...
pretty kool huh ? ... the way i value my frens haha ... well well well after all these 3 frens of mine have becum the "bad guys" in our class haha ... lol ... cause we are like the onli ones who smoke haha ...
we call ourselves the legendary creatures lol ... WTF ?
short form for it is LC haha ... lol
dumb it may sound ... but its really funny haha ... the way khairul said it haha
Z,P,D,K .... hahah Z = Zamir = Zapdos .... P = felix = Phoenix .... D = daniel = dragon .... k = khairul = Kraeken hahaha

lol i will now tell u why my name is phoenix haha ....
case of that bloody khairul haha .... he said tat the name phoenix is kool haha and started calling me that like since day 1 of skool haha ...
my class name list khairul also go write beside .. Phoenix .. (preffered name ) haha fuck siah lol

woooo i love drinking and smoking ... they make me high lol ... actually i think that drinking is much higher than smoking lol ... the effect stays there haha ... just like tat .. haha it onli goes of after a few hours haha .. well smoking effect onli stays there for a bout 5-10 mins lol ...

Sampoerna , Marlborro , Next , Viceroy , Butterfly , Stormking , Suria , Winston , Wilson ..... all try b4 liao lol ... but i still like the taste of sampoerna haha =) it rox ... lol ..
lol ... i learned how to fold the ang hun also lol ... now i can fold it rather well already haha =/

yup made many new frens at poly too .... got to know each other better and stuff ... there was also like much socializing haha ...
time to get to know more bout the other classes ppl haha ....
lol ... no other motive yet lol .... get to know ppl better nia ... no harm wat lol ..

just came back from Jem's house haha ... went to his place for connect session ..
yup one think good about this is tat his house is rather comfortable haha ... its damn damn big haha ... nice real nice haha
he always fetches us back home after session haha ....
had a meaningful session ... we shared our past weeks events and stuff yup yup ...
i just realised that the yiss camp clashes wif my trip to Batam ... oh dear =( ..

Oh ya not to forget this incident that happened in the bus lol .... damn fuck ..
haha ... when i was in the bus on the way to church lol ...
my stop was like the next stop .. but when said excuse me to the guy in front of me ... he just like stared at me ... WTH ?? and i missed my stop ...
that was still ok ... but the next thing was worst lol ... the bus picked up passengers from the next bus stop and started to move without opening the door to let me alight ....
The bell was also spoiled ... wtf man ....
so i didn't have any other choice but to just shout " OI KAI MEN LEH !!! "

all the passeners were like shocked ... haha ... cause i shouted real loud hahax ... and i fucking forgot to scan my card ... lol ... bad luck huh ?? oh well wat can i say ? haha
went to church bought a drink .... and then went to the adoration room and waited for subra there .... after meeting him .. we smoked for a while then we went to Jem's place
there were onli 4 ppl aha me jem subra and joanne haha ....

k ba ... blog next time .. lol i am now using my lappy secretly haha .. kool eh ?

2007-04-29T02:07:00.000+08:00

Have been goin out wif my new frens recently ... as in the frens tat i made in skool
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Made 3 good frens ... cause onli we 4 smoke lol .. smoking break ..

Also went out wif some frens i made online ... lol like jazz ? ...
went wif him to the meridien hotel today ... casue magic hall is located there lol ...
went there to pick up some new skills of flourishing ... rings coins cards ...

lol ... smoked quite abit today too ... about 4 ?? ... lol

sat down blew Os in the air stare at the Os ....
then i tot of sum1 .... damn i miss her lol .... but why ? ..
i miss kukuhead =/ lol haha ... she knows tat .... =.=" lol jk lah ....

life isn't as enjoyable as we think it is ...
stressfulness .... sadness ...
i want an obstacle free life ... lol

i haven seen the green light from god yet ... god knows wat i want most from the bottom of my heart ...
but why don he just fuckin grant tat .. ? ...
its not tat i am angry wif god .... but .... haix ....

hmmmx havent yet went out wif kukuhead b4 ... lol .. just promised to show her some magic tricks when i see her the next time ..
lol she like daoing me =.=" .. sad ... if she also want dao me i don know wat to do liao lol ...
then i got no more close female frens to talk to liao ... still have but not so close .. lol ..

2007-04-14T17:42:00.001+08:00

Wasn't in the mood to blog the past few days lol ... damn tired

Well i went for the nyp's orientation on monday ... met steph at yewtee mrt station ..
she got into the same course as me ... lol she appealed to my course and got in ..

Reached yio chu kang at 8am ... lol and the orientation starts at 8am .. haha pretty cool huh ...
went there then so crowded ... cb ... feels damn stupid to look lost lah .... freshies .. lol
looked for the BME-BioMedical Engineering sign then grouped up with them ...
lol ... Pat was also in the exact same course as me haha ..

I have always tot Pat was jsut like a year older than me or sumting =.=" haha
But she turned out to be one of my seniors in NYP haha .... she is one of the organisers for my orientation haha ...
After we grouped up we sat down and started to introduce ourselves ....
Yup and there was one dye hair guy in my class lol ... he kept staring at me don know why ...
then i just stare back loh .... don care ...

Our class or so called grp leader was Rui Hong ... lol quite frenly lah .. easy to talk to .. he guided us round the skool and stuff ...
then there was toilet break , this is where i got to know the dye hair guy lol ..
his name is Daniel .. haha he asked me wat was my name first , so i jsut did a short intro loh haha .
he is quite frenly though ... so no frets ... yup during lunch we chatted like becum good frens le haha ...
then when it came to the lecturing part ... i got to know more bout the malay guys ...
don know why i suddenly just tap his shoulder then ask ... hey u have cigarette ??
then he say " have but marlboro hot ... u want ?" .. then i say ok loh haha
daniel was like " huh u really have ah ??? "
haha then we both took one stick .... that cigarette provider is kairul lol .. his fren's name is hazul or sumting haha ...

on the way home outside nyp we borrowed a lighter and lighted up the cigarette lol ... this is when i sort of took in the real puff =.=" ... throat pain haha ...
Luckily got ice lemon tea lol ...

The next day we all like know each other liao ... so we met at yio chu kang at 8.45 am ... then we went to skool together lol ...
Tat day was kinda fun .... all games ... but damn fuckin hot lah !!! ...
lunch time we went to cheers to get our snacks haha then go outside skool for quiet time =/

guess the 3 of us are going to be the class trouble makers in future haha =X ..
better not be ba ... later conduct siao liao lol ...
yup and a few of them play dota haha ... we agreed to go for a dota match sum day after skool lol .... will be looking forward to tat day man ... real soon real soon lol ...

getting a new lappy soon ba ... shud be buying it myself ... hmmmx cause the skool onli has ACER and FUJITSU ... so no point ba .... cause i was like longing for an IBM one ... or maybe a MAC ?? kinda kool huh mac ... i like the style damn nice .... but i guess i will be getting the ibm one ba ... more user frenly lol .... i think .. and wont crash often lol ...

Went to amplify yesterday night .. !
Wow ... lol
Saw some familiar faces ... like Christopher See ?? ... Lewis ??
hmmmx Chris was the vocalist for that night haha .. he sang really really well huh ? haha
maybe tats y he is the mentor for our flood ministry haha =)
hmmx din know why i jsut couldn't bring myself to bounce and jump wif the others ...
haix ... i so wanted to jump with them ... but .. just tat .... well .. nvm =.=

then they called out all the april babies ... =.=" ma de .. so malu lah ahhahahahaha !!
Lewis , then his fren .. and me hahaha .. lol ... sian one .. go in front then stand ... then they sing for us =.=" wah .. malu lah ! ..
lol ... then they also gave out easter eggs !! yeah .. nice nice ... lol
forgot to take some for kuku head =/ she said she wanted easter eggs haha .. lol

Hmmmx .... also saw this cute girl at amplify haha =X opps ... lol ... normal onli lah not so cute lol .... kuku head cuter =XX .. lol joking la
nvm lah guys see girls is normal ma lol .....
din dare go say hi lol ... just looked at her she look at me nia .. liddat loh ..

then after that we all left haha .. oh ya .. there were lots of youth ministry ppl present too
like Jem, Greg, Subra, Melvin, Melissa, Val, Antonia, Scholastica, Joanne, shit ... forgot her name lol nice lah ... nvm ...
Val drove the cck area ppl home haha ... as usual i was always the last to be sent home haha cuase Val stays jsut opposite my house haha...
But this time Subra wanted to eat ahha so Val dropped us off at Yew tee ....
We went to ate sum stuff and then went home lol =)

Lol got scolded by my father for coming home late ... wtf ...
I really went for the church thing wat ... wth ... wth !!
why ... don he understand lol ... nvm nvm ....
scared i will hang out wif bengs ?? i don ... lol wtf ..

2007-04-09T00:22:00.000+08:00

"I don know why i always dui ni you fan gan "
tat is one of the most hurting statements i have ever heard b4 ...

i am so sad ... lol ....
i am fan ?? .... rite fine ....
fine
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na bae ... fan gan ?? ...
i will remember this word for life ..
it got me damn sad huh ... so wat just a word ... fuck ...
moodless and sad .... fuckin off to bed soon

why did u say tat ?? ... am i tat bad ??

2007-04-07T19:42:00.000+08:00

been spending my time in church these few days ...
lol lots of events in church lah ... holy thursday .... good friday ... holy sat .. and easter ...
lol ...

been doing some praying too .. yeah ? ... like praying for a direction ... in my life? ??
haha .... =/
i don know wat to do liao lol .... ran out of ideas to get close to her ...
i just don know ..... damn ... it ....
i suddenly don want to give up ...... =/
but i also don know wat to do .... ccb ..... i guess she is trying to avoid me le ??

lol .... yup chatted with Kukuhead-janice ... yesterday nite haha ....
she has one new de photo haha damn cute lah ..... haha ... she edited my shades photo for me too =)) thanks ... lol
really the photo was like damn cute haha .... but i don dare put here later she scratch me haha ... lol ....

lol sian after holy thursday mass we went to the youth room for the sedar meal haha .... ate errm letuce , lamb , bread , drink wine !!! hahaha

lol damn sad ..... during the peace be with u part everyone hugged me ... as in ok i hugged everyone .... but dumb dumb don want hug me =( ... sad lah ... heart tong .... lol
but nvm she called me chat lol haha .....

2007-04-04T20:35:00.000+08:00

Shud i give up ???? .... =(

If u know who u r then good loh ... don know then also good loh ....
lol .. like this preson for so long then suddenly give up like wierd hor .. lol ..
2 yrs is a short time ?? ....

i finally think that there are better things in life .... although i wont say i have completely no feelings for her already .. lol
well i guess i still like her alot but .. well ....
i am sad ... but i guess time will heal these wounds ? lol ...
every time i think of her then i feel sad .... don know why

hmmmx just met qi and jo last friday to take my presents =) ....
hmmmx ... jie gave me a shirt ... and qi gave me a cake hahax ...
haha qi was my so called ex =.=" ...
see her got one awkward de feeling haha .... but yup thanks for e presents ..

the last day at my chalet was fun .. haha =) ... we had bbq ..
But not everyone was like in the spirit to bbq siah don know why haha ..
but after the ppl left we went for a swim haha ... me, bryan , pris , yusan , nicholas haha

it was like so damn fun lah haha love it alot man wohoo !!! i have not swam for like almost a year haha ...
after that xiang , jordan , yusan and i send them to the mrt station haha cause they weren;t staying for the second night .... yeah ... bryan gave me his shades haha he said that was my bd present ...
he was like the most on one lah .... out of all the church ppl i call he is the onli one come ... the rest all don want come .... fine lah ... invite ppl they don want come ...
invite my old frens from sec 1 and 2 de ... they say like class gathering don want come wtf ...
but luckily jazz they all come .. haha then we share magic tricks ... yup ..

The last nitw was like damn fun siah .... everyone left ... accept me jordan xiang and yusan ...
we had some left overs ... so we decided to heat up the food ourselves haha .... went to borrow a lighter and started the fire again ... then we eat haha ....
lol .. probably next yr i will be celebrating it wif my family ? .. haha ... or maybe errm .. my frens ? but no mre chalet lah ... not a very good idea ... =/

2007-04-01T01:39:00.000+08:00

eephii ! ! i'm at my chalet drinking right now . super DRUNK ! ! talking crap and nonsense . black label rocks . . maybe i'll start my stripping stint soon : / lol . . it's my birthday! !

so . . .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

hope dis yr would be great for me and may god guide me on the start of a 'new' life! !

i gettin high. . playing daidee~ maybe go play lan later.

special thnx to: pris, pear, bryan, xiangrui, kingston, jordan, jazz, alvin, chngpng, derrick, daniaal, eugene, yusan, nicholas, leng , etc. for comin to my chalet and those i left out or mispelt ur names! ! will edit them soon. happy april's fool day! ! !

hey dumb dumb thanks for this post =)

2007-03-28T23:30:00.000+08:00

Its funny the way god's miracles are sum times .....
I went for connect session today .... it was held at Jem's place ...

I felt so confused .... and felt like going for it ... so i just went ba ...
Wasn't that bad after all ... well ...
All i wanted was god to guide me in maaking the right choice in life ... =)

Jem suddenly prophecise in the middle of the prayer .. " i sense the lord telling me that sum1 here is having problems .... he wants to know about his future ... the path he is going to take ... and the choice he is gonan make " ...
i was like kinda shocked that he said that man omg !!!
it was actualli referring to me man its me .. !! gosh ...

2007-03-27T15:24:00.000+08:00

I am sad ...
I am confused ...
I am lost ...

God u have to give me an answer .... god u really have to help me ....
i need u to guide me to make the right choice in life .... i hate to fail ...

Do i stand a chance ? .... lol ...
Wat shud i do .... i don know ..
I guess she already know who she is .... lol ... but ...
Well ... watever ... maybe wat sarah said was rite ... i shudn't be too stressed up bout this stuff ..

I think i have finally fallen for sum1 ... again ...
after such a long period of time ....
It cant really be a crush ... a crush wont last that long ...
damn ! .... ****

lol she has too many suitors .... i don think i stand a chance ...
i lack self confidence .. .. shit ...
Y do i feel sad when other guys try and woo her ?? ....
i also don know .... maybe this feeling is just temporary ? ...

I am trying not to hurt any1 by keeping it all to myself ....
sumtimes i keep wondering ... why am i so good to others ?? ....
i make others happy and in the end i end up being the one sad .... =(

everything is planned by god .... no matter wat obstacles we face good or bad ....
sumtimes i wish i could just see the plan god has for me .....

2007-03-21T22:33:00.000+08:00

Hmmmx starting preparations for my bd .... lol ...
so far i have onli got 20 plus ppl going i think hahax .... not too bad ba hopefully got full attendance haha ...

now have ( pear , pris , nic , jordan , derrick , cp , xiang , king , nicki , bryan , jazz , leng , ting , alvin , yusan , quanhui , andy , jeric , congshen , shavin , danial , weisheng , velraj , weiting , wendy , .... more to come ba ... lol )
Lol ... tot jazz wont come hha ... he said he can onli come on sat and sunday lol haha ... hmmmx ok ok next day also no more thing to do haha ...

Lol ... am i confused ? sian i think i am =(
lol i was also that close to my gan mei b4 .. lol .. maybe a little closer ?
sian i remembered that time .... i ended up falling for my gan mei ... cause of some misunderstanding lol ... i tot she liked me too but .. oh well .... it was a really hard fall =(
the way she treated me made me think that she liked me lol ... but ... she did not .. she onli treated me as a brother ... lol ...

lol i don want to make the same mistake again ... i don want ny more missunderstandings =/
well i hope my confession wont be too late ba .... but but .... lol

2007-03-19T22:41:00.000+08:00

lol ... chalet for birthday? ?... hahax ...
chat wif pris then suddenly think of chalet then chat untill becum celebrate my bd at chalet =.=""
hmmmx ... not in good mood today siah .. don know why =/
Chat on msn le then so sian .... like sad then like sian ... not sure also =/

" I will not tell a girl that i like her , if i know that she will never be wif me .. or if i sense that she doesn't have feelings for me ... =( .. " sad ... lol

the phrase nothing is impossible = crap ... lol

I am very confused now ...

2007-03-13T16:43:00.000+08:00

Stayed at home the whole day .... fucking boring ...
The gastric was killing me yesterday night ... lol ... fucking pain ..

i slept like at 5.30 am ... or later ... the pain was like soo pain that i could not even sleep ..
then i went out to the living room ... and sat on the sofa ...
had the nausea feeling ... so quickly went to the kitchen to take some sweets lol ..
The whole night was totaly fucked up ... totaly ... i could not get any sleep at all ...

woke up at 1pm today .... first thing ... my father said to me when i woke up was .. "u are always waking up so late and not helping out around the house .. "
fuck .... now i have to sleep b4 12 am ??? gosh .. why ... as if i am going to wke up so early ..
I woke up late because i was sick last night ...

Lol ... i don know why she wants to go back to him also ...
After wat he has done to her ....
i don understand ..
Bro ... i told u so tat maybe u could persuade her or sumting ??
but u got mad at me .... today was freaking off ... like nothing is right at all ...

Chatting with Jan kuku head made me happier ?? cheered me up haha ... onli that chat ... none other .... .... she was also sad ... so i just consoled her ... yup and thanks for editing the photo =)

2007-03-12T00:49:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 6 in the morning .... soo damn early ... cause y ?? today got the youth doing the canteen food mah haha ... so got to go help out =/
not that i am relucktant but ... onli super tired haha ... nvm .. its for god hahaha ....

Haha Jeremy Subra asked me to buy for him cigarattes haha ... but i couldn't ... so ... haha i got sum 1 else to buy it for him ba ... dad drove me there .... reached there ard 7 plus ... by then most of the food were already ready ... so dad bought a few stuff for breakfast ... and then went home .... =/

It was kinda fun .... serving the ppl of the church ... haha mainly the old folks .. ??? yup ..
A bit ma fan lah ... lol ... cause sum ppl order alot of things siah haha =.=" ...
then got some kind ppl also ... they say keep change and all that haha =)

After the 11 o'clock mass i went back alone to the youth stable to practise playing on the guitar .... oh ya and i din know Greg could play that well haha .... well oh well ... practise makes perfect ... all the same crap lol ... =/
Damn audition is like just a few more weeks away ?? ... ya .. on the 24th =(
think i cant make it ba ....
Stef came onli after the whole think lol ... she came in the youth room and sat for a while ... we like din talk at all for sum reason i don know why lol .. just throw pillows at me .... she think fun =.=" .. siao ...

hmmmx then later antonia chatted with me at the canteen for a while bout e audition thing ...
she told me not to get so tensed haha =D thanks =)
After that shared cab with Stef ... she went her ah ma house i go home sleep .....
cuase got to come back church serve 5.30 pm mass lol ... no fun ...
And the whether fucking hot today .. =X

Sian ... no one call me chat at nite any more .... i miss chatting on phone .... but haix .. nvm ..
maybe just sit in front of tv loh ..... sian insomnia so suck .... cant sleep .... cant sleep !!!!!!
Lol am i missing sum1 ? ..... hu do i miss ??? .... i also don know lah ... ma de ... =/

2007-03-01T16:23:00.000+08:00

yup ... woke up so late today .... at 12 pm ...lol

Bought a new guitar yesterday .... and tried playing it by myself the whole night ... but i cant seem to get any notes rite .... sad ....
Tot my fren said she was gonna teach me .. but she did not want to in the end .... lol ... nv would have got the guitar if no one was gonna teach me lol ... but ...
oh well .... maybe i would go sign up for lessons or sumting .... just my luck ... haha

Well saw Rusydi's display picture haha .. he was playing pool ohhh ...
So i jioed him to bukit timah to play pool .... got Cp to come wif us too haha .... well not too bad got win got lose haha ... hai hao .. lol ... bukit timah like becoming my second home liao .. =.="
Lol .... pool was ok lah .... played for 1 hr plus then go play lan lol ...

Lol as usual loh dota ..... haha ....
Rusydi and cp vs me loh .... 2 v 1 ... lol
Sk and Lich ... vs AM ... lol
i owned them lah .... lol ... then later sum1 come ask if he can join us for 2v2 haha ... lol ..
then rusydi and me vs cp and that guy .... lol
I use my main loh ... NS ... ma de .... was playing well lol got 7 kills ... and 3 deaths i think .. in mid game .... but wtf ... all 3 kills were gangs .. lol ... not 1v1 ... power loh ...

They were leading .... but we did not finish the match casue our time was up haha ... lol ..
then we extended it to play cs haha =) cs was kool haha .... haha got 2nd for the total kills or sumting .. lol ..
the opponent got too many cb players le lah ... lol .. all na bae one ... take para anyhow spray .... lol ... then artic from top shoot ... lol ... i still own them ... noobs .... one mp5 ... 30 bullets fucked them upside down ... onli gun i cant use is artic .... wtf haha .... awp i sure lose ...
Lol ... after that one huge gang liddat came in the lan shop haha ... then tot hu ... lol
they were Jazz ... Alvin and gang lah haha .. so many ppl siah haha ... then jazz came to me first thing onli say " hello ! magician haha .. then we shook hands or sumting haha ... then alvin .. go touch my back hair wah ... so long hahaha =.=" .... His one longer siah .. so obvious ... like untill shoulder liao ... lol ... haha =.=" haha they all dota gia haha ... power one ... haha no match de play wif them ... lol ... maybe can lah .. half fight ... =/ ... haha i improved quite a bit le ba haha ....

Then went to beauty world the up there makan ...
Ate the mutton soup wahahaha !!! nice nice .. long time no eat le lol ..
Wah tell Rusydi there got halal food he go mac eat by himself ... lol make me feel so bad siah .. like dua psk liddat ma de ... lol so we faster eat then go to mac pei him haha ..
lol later cp wanted to go liao so he went ... Rusydi and I still want play pool so we played a whiile then go le haha ...
Met Fad they all on the bus ... lol ... the Ven... sumting one ... and Hairul also there ... ya and Arini ...
haha Ven... kept talking on his phone bout wat gang stuff de lah ... lol got ppl whack his fren gina then he kana called to go back to Regent sec outside there to settle i think lol .... lol i know who whacked hu but i don want say lol ... lol ... aiya don know lah ... but he go lot 1 play pool =.="

Yup took the same bus as Arini ... 302 ... then i alighted at yewtee .. then go home le loh haha .... got not much to talk liao very long no see her le haha ... =.='' ....
Came home then bathe and stuff then take guitar try play again ... but sian .. i cant seem to get it right ... lol ...
My phone's vibration was a little spoiled i guess .... stef called twice i think ... but i did not hear ... so never pick up ... then try return call she also bo pick up ... lol ... sian ...
nvm loh ..... tomorrow call her loh ... =/

2007-02-28T22:21:00.001+08:00

Guess i shouldn't go for sum1 i will never get .....
some one not within my reach ...

There is a saying " Aim for the sun ... for if u fail u would a least reach the clouds ?? ... "
nah .... not every 1 will do tat ....
gosh ... anyway ... single life is also kinda fun .. =/

2007-02-28T01:23:00.001+08:00

Not much to blog ....
got to know a fren better recently ... thats all

FELIX DIED .... =.="

2007-02-27T02:02:00.000+08:00

Memories of the past still lingers in my mind .... no matter how hard i try to forget them ...
Even getting drunk wont solve this problem ... omg ... !!

nvm ... nvm .... lol i din knoe e 33 can get me drunk ... gosh i must be getting really weak already ..... =(
why why why .... why do i feel so so confused .... gosh .... am i sad or wat ... wat shud i do ..

sumtimes i really wonder why god created me .... why did he put me on earth to suffer ....
wat is my goal in life ...w at does god want me to do ... wat is my mission on earth ...
why am i so confused =( y y y y ....................
i hate that feeling ... its coming back =/ ... fuck it ...

2007-02-12T15:53:00.000+08:00

hmmmx yesterday was fun haha i went for the youth rally wahaha !!!!! wohooo !!! high party haha !!!
Hmmmx one bad news .... his grace .. the arch bishop did not turn up =( cause he was sick .. lol
Wow ... 800 plus youth turned up =) mostly catholics haha ... sounds damn kool eh ?? haha
hmmmx saw some familiar faces there ... like Larris ?? haha .... lol his hair style change le haha =/ ...

Well planned to go out in the morning with Nicki and Bryan ... but in the end . Nicki cant go for some reason lol ... then .. we cancellled the outing ... ma de ...
Then i gathered in church at 5.30 pm to meet up wif the youth ministry members haha ... We took a coach which was booked by Antonia haha ...
Went to CJC ... as the rally was held there ....

Wow .. CJC looks kinda big lol .... hmmmx but many ppl there i don seem to know the haha ... so onli talk to those in the youth loh ... =.=" ..
hmmmx we went up to the audithorium ?? .... don know how spell lol ... got ticket de haha ... summore got free de cd haha wow .... lol ....
nvm lah donation i gave $10 lol ... sad sad sad haha ... =) nvm its for god =))

Lol i like damn persuasive siah haha . i got stef to come for the rally wohooo !!!! eloquent speech boy boy =X
errrm .... well .. she came in like damn late lah haha .. then sat at the far end .. lol ... i could see her ... so i smsed her and told her where we was .. haha ...
The atmosphere in the audithorium was like so damn high lah .... like rock concert liddat hahaha ... so koool ... lol shud have took a video down ... sian why nv tot of that lol ..
everyone jumping up and down lol =/ ... i just sang soft soft loh haha ..
Stef kept crying after she was prayed over ... lol ... nvm lah so many boys consloed her ... lol

After the whole Rally ... the youth ministry de ppl wanted to go makan haha ... so we went to the opposite beauty world that coffee shop the al .... dono wat lol =.=" ....
some how after the rally stef and i like talk alot leh .. haha cause maybe the ppl there she not so shou ba haha ... =/
lol surprisingly Stef was like so easy to talk to haha ... lol ... just talk talk loh damn fun haha ...
After we finished makaning ma de ... already 12.35 am siah wooooooooohooooooooo !!! high time approach .. lol ...
Then i jokin jokin ask stef want play lan or not ... ma de she say yes hahaha ... =X ...
Then we decided to play pool instead haha ... =) so fun ....

Pool pai the ball horx must have J de leh ... then don know why Stef insisted on paiing N de shape ... siao one she =.=" .... lol thts y first match i lose haha ...
see second match i pai J then i win haha 3rd match also ... but 4th match jiu wierd wierd liao .... we play untill going to finish then siao cb ... got plain clothes police man come ma de ... check identification ... lol ... must check ic haha ... then write down the name lol and address don know gam lan .... lol .... then we onli finished the 4th game loh then need go le ..
wtf .. !!
no high haha .. lol sian ... police lai disiao ... mad de lol grrrr ....
play untill so fun then kpkb come ... siao one haha ... so wat if we teens loh ... cannot stay outside meh .. ma de .. Stef scare me siah ... she say she no ic then the police say have to take her back to the police station lol ... cause they don know if she is singaporean or illegal immigrant ... haha
Luckily she got ic haha ... she forgot she brought it lol =.="""""

Aiya than after that game then we left le loh haha ... fun fun fun ... play pool wif new balls , stick and table haha wohoo !!
took cab home after that ..... shared cab she took to her house .. thne later i take go home loh haha ... wow .. reach home le so late liao 3 plus hahaha ...
then she still want play dota =.=" mad ..... then nvm loh ...
sian she nv patch her fota haha .. teach her how to patch untill 5 am .. but to no avail lol .. then i ji tao give up go sleep haha =)

2007-02-07T00:30:00.001+08:00

Well this is wat i get in return ... for being nice
Hmmmx i hate this ... lol .... Guess i must stop being so nice to ppl .. ??
( daoness from a fren ) very good .... very good .....
I was always there for frens .... well .... great... this is god's plan for me ?? ( Fuck it )
Living me to die in my own world of boredom ...
Come to think of it .. no one really understands me well enough ... no one is ever there for me when i need sum1 the most ?? .....
Whatever .... if this is the way god wants my life to be ... so be it ... emotions are onli short lived ??
Well should not be blogging all my emotions on my blog ba i guess ... emo blog sucks ..

Woke up early in the morning at about 8 am .... went to Bro's (cp) house for a while ..
Followed him to the hair salon to get his fringe rebonded .... =.=" very wierd ... maybe its just a matter of time to get use to it ba ...
lol y don want to put colour ?? ... lol ...
After that we went to Lot 1 to meet pear ... and then after meeting her , we went all the way to tanjong pagar ... lol ..
There we met up wif Pris and Daniaal for lunch ... lol .... Daniaal smoke virginia slims haha ...
Ate fish soup there ....

After that pris and daniaal went back for their work .... well then ...
We went to Meridien to get my precious bicycle deck ... lol ... surprisingly. .. there were lots of fuckers there .... mainly from the top schools ?? SJI ?? ... mother fucking arrogant asses they are ... lol hate to be wif them ... so wat if they know magic ?? must they fuckin talk so loud ?? i don think so .... luckily i was humble enough ... kept my cool ... bought the decks and then left ...

Pear was pissed .... i guess ... she did not want to go there ... =.=" for some reason .. she wanted to play majhong ... wierd lah she ... siao .. !
So we went to cuppage ?? i think its spelled like that ... to play pool ... there we met Alvin Siah and his fren ... hmmmx .... lol ... i tot i improved on my pool skills today ba ... =)
Wow ... Alvin was pro ... lol .. he thrashed pear hahahha .. !!! nah la joking ...
We played Lan there for a while too ... well wtf ..

K-Box = disaster ... = sleeping room wif music ....
Lol i was Pear's great idea to go to K-Box ... omg .... i koon there man .... siao eh .... bill was $21 for kooning and tidbits ... wth !!! .....
Nvm lah .... Pear .... this time is the first time i go K-Box also mah ... so nvm .. bad first time experience lol ... i don want come le =( ...

Results are coming out soon .... well time flies .... Friday will be the day to determine my future ..
Hope my results will me good ... well i mean ... be able to get into a good course in Poly ...
hope my sense of forebordingness is unreal .. haix ...

I am sad ... somehow or another .. ?? ... y ??
Gosh i feel like smoking .... either smoking or drinking ... just 1 ... or both
It will make me forget my sorrows ... drown them ... i never seem to get drunk no matter how much i drink ... guess i am used to it ....
Sleeping at home on Vday i guess ? ....
will feel awkward if i go out wif a girl on that day anyway ... .. nah nvm .....
going to bed soon ... blog again next time ...

2007-02-02T19:04:00.000+08:00

=( it has been 3 fuckin weeks since i last went out ... omg !!!!
Well as in out wif frens and stuff ... haix all go back skool study le ... sec 5 . Then all my classmates all working wtf !!!!!
MY BOREDOM IS UNIMAGINABLE !!!!! help !!!

3 saturdays i jio nicki go out ... ta ma de keep saying not free ... nvm loh , this one hai hao .
Worst is kuku like starting to dao me le .. for some reason ba .. don know y . =( nvm .... its ok .. sad .. =(

Haha i made a new kuku also =) that is Yeo Kexin = kuku yeo ...
me = kuku lam haha ... don know how she found my blog .. =.="
Very sian ... every day stay at home dota dota dota .. or maybe cod2 cod2 cod2 =.=" damn boring ...

Guess i am going to sleep at home during valentines day =( .....
Sleep sleep sleep ... everyone outside couple couple haha wo shui jiao ... wa ai koon .. =/

Oh ya i also went out wif my gan mei and jie =) haha that day was fun ??
They tot it was fun haha so do i =) .... hmmmx hai hao lah ... we went to town to watch movie ..
errrrm if i am not rong its " Ghost tunnel " haha .. eeeew it wasn't scary ... the ghost like cartoon .. power loh .. haha .. this 3 months holiday si bei du lan .. watch many screwed up movies liao ... ( snow cake , eragon , openseason , ghost tunnel . ) =.= ..... nvm nvm had fun wif frens !!!!
Love going out wif frens ... i just loe to be out of my house .... haix haix haix ...
hmmmx after movie i treat them to dome for coffee and cake hahaha !!! see i soooooooo goood haha casue u know y ?? i have voucher haha ... ma de expire le .. 31st jan expire .. sian i onli used 3 haha ... siao eh ... uncle denny give de lol ... nvm its free anyway haha =X

Yup i also more active in church liao haha ... yeah !!! i told jem about my idea of wanting to setup a magic club or sumting in the youth ministry haha ... wow the respond was kinda unexpected =.=" .... siao eh .. he said now now now !!! start it now !! why wait ?? haha ... cause i not prepared ma haha ... must go perfect all my tricks first de loh ... but a lot siah (like = magic wif " cans , rubber bands , coins , cigaratte , ashes , floating ... well and mainly cards ?? )
But i will have to find more tricks .. well advanced ones =) sian my card skills drop le .. not so good liao ... haha ... nvm nvm .... yup and i made some magic diciples too wahahhaa !!!! see i so good i imparted my skills to them free of charge hahaa =)

Wahahaha !!!! i update le ah !!! =)))

2007-01-18T16:40:00.000+08:00

.. Woah !! ...
Its getting really really bored . Nothing rally interesting to kill time .. other than working =.="
Hmmmx havent been blogging for the past few days ?? yeah .. been kinda busy wif work .. =/

Well basically i am workin in 2 companies ...
errm 1 is the AIA insurance company .. the office is located in tampines
The 2nd plcae is the cadbury factory ?? near jurong point there de ..

Hmmmx haven earned a lot ba .. roughly bout 300 plus ?? about there ...well my pair is kinda irregular ... errm the pay at the choco factory is kinda pathetic ?? .. =X
$40 dollars for working from 9am to 6pm ... wtf ..
In AIA i get a much higher pay haha ... cause the boss is my father lol ...
I went there to help my father out wif his admin stuffs like stamping his clients birthday cards and new year cards .. and then sending them out

Actualli i did not intend to work in the choco factory .. but my fren needed help so i just agreed loh ... lol ...
Kool my father wants to hire miss thila to work for him haha .. ... cause i told him that miss thila is looking for a job now haha !!
Lol first my tuition teacher now my school de haha .. =)

All my church mates are busy now ... as the holidays are finally over for them ..
Nicki , Bryan ... wish both of them good luck in their O's this year ... U CAN DO IT !!!

Recently i just joined the Youth Ministry in church haha !!!
Great now i find myself spending more time wif god , and at the same time experiencing him more often in my daily life .
I am thinking of starting a magic club in church haha =P hope ppl will join .. but i must first ask for permission first haha =)

Yah .. i also changed my phone wohooo !!!! finally .. after the fuckin day i lost my bag .. with all my valuables in it ... tmd !!!!! nvm nvm forgive and forget =)
but my number is still the same haha
i feel so holy every sunday haha !!! i stay in church almost the whole day yeah ... lol
11 am mass i serve ... after 11 am mass g for youth session ..
after youth session i follow all the youth gina go makan ... then after that come back to church to train the younger boys for service ... lol ...
I am thinking of stepping down before i enter army ?? ... wow !! still a long way ahead .. a few more years .. hopefully will be 2 or 3 onli .. not 5 haha

Currently waiting for O's results which will be out on the 10th of feb ... oh dear .. i don want to fail !!! ... nvm god give me strength and courage ... i can do it !! i will pray more
Spoil the mood lahz ... result b4 chinese new year .. lol ... but if its damn good ah i tell u .. i invite my frens to my place for majhong .. sure one ... 1 tai $100 wohoo !!!!! high high high !!!!

ok ok thats all for now ... will be going for Nicki's group de cell group meeting ...
Sorry Janice kuku ... i have to ps u this time if u are going =(=(=(
cant go for both cause they clash ...
hmmx maybe next week i will be going for antnias group one instead ..

Alright Pris .. i updated le ah =)

Any way i read Nicki's blog every now and then ... ya his poems are damn good ... but seriously think that this is the best one he ever wrote ... He sort of expressed his feelings from his heart sooo clearly ... reading it is enough to feel the heart ache that he has ... really kool poem haha

Every time I think of youI cry myself to sleep.

I think about all our memories, And from that I cannot eat.

Every time I close my eyes It feels like you are standing here.

But every time I open my eyes, You seem not to be there.

When I think of you Im sad Cause I knew what I did was wrong.

What was I thinking to tear us a part.

I should have expressed my feelings to you from the start.

Every time I think of you I want to call you and say Im sorry.

I would do anything in my power just to bring you back just to keep you right here with me .

Quoted from : http://visionary-vanguard.blogspot.com/

2007-01-02T15:58:00.000+08:00

New Year countdown celebration was damn fun haha but a bit lonely ..

As usual the 3 most on ppl were here onli ... They are Nicki , Bryan and myself .

The venue of the celebration is .... MY HOUSE !!!! tmd ... =.="

Woke up early in the morning to attend the 11am mass =D ..

Wtf loh haha brother .... Nicki insisted that we attend the 11am mass lol so that he can see someone ... i think ... lol .

I was the first to reach there haha ... fuck siah .. i tot i late le then i took cab there tmd then i realised that i was the first haha ..

Went and sat on the railing to wait for the both of them . Then i saw steff .. haha told her to come down dowan dowan then later come down =.=" ...

then bryan came and then 3 of us chatted for a while and steff went up. THen Nicki didi came =X ... haha host is late wtf haha ...

After mass we went town . =D

Meridian hotel - magic hall 3rd floor

Hmmmx the magician wa pretty good ba i guess but i know most of the tricks haha not too bad i havent deproved yet haha ... =/

Luckily jazz told me that meridian hotel was situated near sing plaza , otherwise i wouldn't have found it ...

Anyway i bought a ghost deck , and surprisingly Bryan bought a deck too =P ... after much persuasion was invloved haha .. the deck was not too bad ba - Tally Ho black deck .. the coolest thing about his deck was that it has a blank card haha =)

So damn sian after that i had to rush back to church for mass ... Cause i have to serve it on my father's accord .. lol =.+
FUCK !!!!! RUSH ALL THE WAY THERE THEN CAN'T SERVE ..... !!!!!!!!!!!
At that time i damn shio man ... then i go out to find nicki they all to play cards .
Went to Lot 1 for dinner and then to my house ... We went striaght to the reflective pool haha hoping that no one was there haha but tmd got ppl bbq sum more ...

Then we don care lahx we play cards liao then go swim haha cold like cock siah haha ... omg .. then it started to rain .... then we decided to get some beer to keep ourselves warm haha ... fun fun we drink and play cards on the 6th level of the carpark haha =X

These are our boozes >>>>

here are more photos about wad happened .

I totally don advice anyone to buy Absolut Vodka

By looking at my pics u shud be able to see how much we hate it =X haha

After that they came to stay over at my place haha =D

2006-12-28T13:17:00.000+08:00

I feel so damn fukin bored today ... haix ...

Woke up at 5 liddat and realised that i psed kuku =(

So i smsed back " i am so so so so sorry kuku ... i fell asleep " but kuku did not reply me for the whole day .... haix .. =( hope she is not angry .. she angry then cannot sms her liao ... =.=" .. then the chocx i eat myself le =X

anyway went to town with a few of my frens .. " Nicki , Bryan , Edwin , Jermaine , Geraldine , Denise , Cecilia "
So damn sian loh .. i think today was the worst outing that i have ever had ... i think we all just watched the movie for the sake of watching it man .. haha
WTH !!!!!!!!! " snow cake " it sucks more then open season man ... ccb .. knn
And we wtched it in the worst cinema ever ... cathay .. at plaza sing one .. tmd wat the fuck .
u cant even bring popcorn into it , and they fukin have a popcorn stall outside .. i just don get it why ... aiyo siao ..

Hmmmx .. i think i smsed kuku about 4 times ... haix .. she i think angry le siah ...
i hate making ppl angry .. don know y .. die ah .. lol
or maybe is her sms bomb liao then never reply ... sian sian ...

Today was totally fucked up lahx ... first the damn movie ... then janice never sms back .. =X

2006-12-17T16:19:00.000+08:00

It feels so good to be out the whole day . !!!!! fuckin around lol ... =X

Woke up early this morning about 9.30am ... Nicki just came back from Malaysia yestetday night and wanted me to pei him go church . 11 am mass haha .
Hadn't been serving mass for about 3 weeks or so , so i decided to serve the 11 am mass .
Haha i tot janice was there , but she wasn't =.=" ... lol nvm .
Wah i sever mass also call pang seh siah . Cause i nv sit wif Nicki , WTH man haha .

After mass met up wif Nicki at the youth ministry there . They were selling our confirmation video and pictures for $12 as kuku had mentioned . Wah when i go there they started packing liao ... =.= .. so nv buy loh haha .
Nicki agreed wif me yesterday that he would accompany me to go jalan jalan around lot 1 there haha . But tmd he kept saying that he don feel like going .... haha .
Well waited a while for Jeremy.S. Took a stroll down the park leading to hazel park , cause they wanted to smoke .. lol ... haha i walk in front of them in order not to be a passive smoker .
Jeremy offered me one but i don want haha . Me guai !!!!!

After their so called "quiet time" , Nicki and i both went to lot 1 to catch the monie " Eragon " .
The movie turned out to be quite dissapointing .. It looked so good in the trailer , but eventually it turned out to be rather boring . It got a little more exciting onli in the middle ba ....

Wth Nicki keep scolding me ... he say the show fuck ... lol .. better than open season loh ... haha .

Wasn't realli planning to serve the evening mass , but unfortunately sumting cropped up and Marcus asked me to go and serve .
Nvm ... although its rather tiring but i guess it would strengthen my faith ba haha . =X ....

After the evening mass , met up with my family and sat a taxi to Yew Tee for dinner . Dad was not in town , so he wasn't there to join us . Lol shan't elaborate much on the dinner .

Today was a little boring .. compared to the past few days ..

2006-12-14T18:18:00.000+08:00

Wow !! time flies man ... its already in to the 2nd week of the year end December holidays .

Should think of some interesting stuff to do ba . I some how feel bored lah , i don know why i cant seem to find anything to kill time . Seriously this cant carry on .

Well .. hmmmx i have been to chalet the past few days . 3 days 2 nights , @ costa sands resort in pasaris .
On teusday night , the night before my chalet , i got a huge scolding from my father .
Its like wat the hell did i do man !! , i don think deserve to be scolded . So wat if i don eat togehter wif the family ?? I am still part of the family rite ?? it dosen't make sense , will not eating with my family make me an outsider ??
wat the fuck man . Sometimes it just doesn't feel rite . I am sick and tired of being reprimanded , i am old enough to take care of my own ass . I am so a controlled freak , i don want to be controlled by people , i hate it . I have the priority to take charge of my life , i do wat i like .

My parents get hot on my heels for the tiniest bit of mischief . I can't use the computer for too long , I cant go out too often . I have to do the housework .
My parents never leave me alone when i am using the com . Well i mean who likes to be disturbed when u are indulging urself in a game ?? Honestly speaking no one likes it .
That is why I go out whenever there is a chance , to either meet my frens or to just take a walk alone . I kinda think that frens are better in one way or another , the feeling that they give me is beyond wat my family can give . I cant really describe this feeling , its like i feel happy when i am wif my frens . Although i cant say that i am a very good fren , but i really do keep my frens close , i also pray for them every now and then . I thank GOD for giving me such good frns and buddies .
I haven shed a tear for about 2 years or so , but i sort of teared on tuesday after my father reprimanded me . I don know why , but i did not cry i just felt watery in my eyes .
When i sat down on the sofa to do some soul searching , i had flashbacks of the healing session
which took place during my confirmation camp . I recalled that one of the facils told me this " I sense the lord telling me that u are not on good terms wif ur family . " suddenly i fel that that statement is true .
But luckily "kuku" was there to console me . kuku = Janice . haha i felt much better , after chatting wif her for a while . =.= thanks kuku !

I went to sleep soon after chatting wif her , i got to know her from my church , and through friendster , and soon after came up wif the nickname 'kuku' for her .

Forward to the chalet . Woah , it was supposed to be a class chalet =.=" . but onli a pathetic 7 ppl turned up . WTH man !!!! but after all this chalet turned out to be good one , although it lagged the company of other frens .
7 ppl ?? this means that there will be abundunt space for sleeping . =P .
No barbacue , no swimming , and no beach walk =( . But lots of gambaling and drinking hahaha =).
I am a heavy drinker ?? ... well no ba i am casual . I drink occasionally , but loads at a time haha ... thats why my frens called me jiu gui =.=" . I only acompany Pearly to drink onli ma ... haiz ..
The trip to the escape theme park turned out to be a realli bad one ... after onli 2 rides , the rain started pouring . Damn it , $6 man !!!! but too bad .. so we just went back to the chalet , and played some pool . Yeah arcade was fun , Dotona haha ... most fun lol .... we saw an sunty breaking the high score of the street baskeball , omg !!!! "588 pts " how the hell does she expect anyone to beat it man haha ... =.=" .. But we witness another guy beating the high score at a stunning " 599 pts " haha ..
Pearly , Xian Rui and me went to the lan shop to play cs at 3 am on wed night haha ... fun fun ... Tmd Pear killed xiang and me with head shots wth haha ... >.<

Unfortunately Pear was sick yesterday night , so we did not go to the lan shop for another game =( ... but instead we stayed up late to play majhong haha . We rented it at $20 ... damn its super expensive , to even play pool there wat the hell man . $2 per game , where got fun , siao one . lol . Haix Pear drank too much lah , she got drunk i think , but she kept denying it =.-"
So i drank it for her .. lol ... no cake haha ..
I am glad to see myself becoming holier after the confirmation camp =) .. i prayed before all my meals and for my frens & family too haha ...
Yesterday night was scary haha ... Xiang kept saying that he heard whispers when he was asleep .. omg !!!! that freaked me out a little ... then they also say that they heard footsteps on the staris leading to the room ... =/ scary man haha ... but i am a guy that believes in god and have strong faith .. so there is nothing to fear haha .
Before we slept we shared our wierd encounters with each other haha .... i told them about Jem's sword encounter thingy .

Left the chalet this morning .. had the reluctant feeling .. don know y .. maybe its beacuse i will miss my frens haix .......=C

"Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited."Romans 12:16

2006-12-12T17:40:00.000+08:00

hmmx .. been busy the past few days wahaha .. lots of stuff went on ba .. well i mean i went to various places in such this short period of time haha ...

firstly errr i went out wif Nicki to catch e movie "Casino Royale"
wow i personally think that its the best bond movie they ever made =X . Some ppl may beg to differ ba haha . I felt gay man haha ... a bit lah haha cause 2 boys sit together in cinema wierd leh haha .. =X
Knn no peace haha =X . James called me 3 times during the movie ... actualli i jio him come one but he said he not free . Nicki was sad mah so i like jio some frens to go out together wif him so that he will feel better .. =) but in the end tmd onli me and him .
After the movie ended , we met up wif James haha then we went to play lan at cineleisure .
DOTA !!!!!!!!! fun game it is man , although i suck at it =P ( we sort of won that match )
After that we went to Taka to pay pear a visit .

The next day i went to Nicki's place to teach him magic . Wahaha , Bryan also came .. hmmx i fooled them by some tricks man kool =.=" ...
This shows that my magic skills haven deproved yeah ??
But no one wants to take any lessons from me yet .. haiz ... sian =( except Nicki .
Nicki kuku lah say want to send me to the bus interchange but nv ... sian .. so go home myself loh cause Bryan stay near onli mah =(

Orchard is fun .. haha . see in just 3 days i have been there twice already ... cause i went there the following day . This time more ppl went .. there were Cecilia , Jermaine , Nicki , Bryan and me . we went there too early liao lah cb . no shops open one . so we go makan loh , nothing to do so eat haha =X .
Caught another movie "Open Season" ...
i was like omg i wont ever watch this ... when they suggested watching it ..
U cant believe my amazement when Nicki said that he wanted to watch it . =X . He kept saying it is a "great animation with a great story line' =.="

$6.50 gone ... sian ... i felt broke at that time man so damn fuking poor ..
i have never felt that way b4 ... its like haiz all my frens are working except me =(
i need money and i want to work ... but where to ?? haix ...
The FUKING CARTOON SUCK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUKING ANIMATION WITH A FUKING STORY LINE =/ sorry ah Nicki i insult ur statement haha ... =X

The next day went out again =.= . poor me .. spending lots of money ...
agreed to bring Nicki to the magic store at Shaw Tower .. its known as the "magic Castle"
this time not orchard le ... heng ah .. there too many ppl liao haha
Bugis this time haha .. omg met Nicki at jurong east then go .
tmd made me wait for so damn long ... suppossed to be at 12 de .. we met at 1 .. sian kuku he .
He is so blurr he sat the rong bus and went to boon lay instead haha .
anyway got there and then took a cab to Shaw tower . This time more fuck . Shaw Tower onli 3 mins walk away and i don know how to go haha =.="

We went to the magic shop and wated patiently for it to open . Nicki was sort of in to magic suddenly i also don know y leh haha . Didn't know that i was such an influential type of person haha =X.
He bought an orange deck . The fat magician showed us some realli good tricks haha .. i was impressed first time man ... but i knew his secret haha just that saying it out will be an embarrassing scene haha =P wont it ?? so i kept it zipped

taught Nicki how to fan and stuff .. he also got himself a blue bicycle deck cause he say orange is for style not magic haha.

k lah i blogged to much liao ... the part where he came to my house for more intense magic training wont be elaborated ba =P haha ...
got to sleep soon .. chat wif fren then go to another world haha =)

2006-12-12T03:08:00.000+08:00

KUKUUUU(:
its mie kuku here.
hahah. im here in eur
blog tu help eu blog.
eh. eu tis psk no. 1.
eberitym psk mie. see now.
im stil sho gud tu help eu blog.
omgg. ib eu mak mie angry agn.
i gonna hack eu ! sho boredd.
nxt tym eu gonna help mie blog
tuuu :DDDDDDDDDDD

KUKUUUS ferrr lyfeees ((((:

# NI CEES.

2006-12-02T21:49:00.000+08:00

Had camp for the past few days .... it was so damn fun man wahaha ... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =X

The first day was like more of the getting used to the church environment haha !! ... I was the first confirment to reach the church haha .. first time i early siah .. =) ... it was onli 11 at that time ... =.=" ... waiting for it to start was so boring ... haha .. so i contacted Nicki and james to come earlier haha ....
When they reahed , Nicki wanted to go for "quiet time" ... haha u will soon knoe wat it is haha ... =X ... James took one stick and started smoking wif Nicki haha ... well i don realli smoke that much , casual type of smoker lah .... ppl offer i take nv offer then nvm one haha ... so i just shared it wif james ... took a few puffs and stopped ... lol cannot let my father know worx later die haha .... =X

first day of the camp was more of the introductory one ... haha ... and lots of group sharing ..
My facils .. or in orther words group leader were Benn an Pris ... haha omg they are like so damn caring loh .... =)=) .... Will miss them realli lots i guess =( ... sad =(
my group consists of 10 ppl including the facils .. ( Nicholas , Cheri , Michelle , Stephanie , Jason , Norman , err got one more sorri i forgot the name =X and lastly me =) )

After the interview and group sharing stuff , we had praise and worchip .. =.=" haha so loud siah ... haha but fun ... the first day of praise and worchip was like .. i dont want to sing lah
haha .. !! but the next few praise and worship we were like so in to it man haha !! haha so fun we started to jump and sing .. haha .. the drums and guitar was too loud .. haha but it was like a rock concert haha fun !! Nicki was the one who intiated the jump thingy and the whole room started to dance wahaha !! omg ... disco ... clubbing wahaha !!!

Quiet time was a rext time ... 1/2 hours .. this time was for smoking hahaha ... ya lah no good for health but i casual only .... not adiicted =) fren fren then siew with them haha
rlues say cannot somke in campus but i brought them to a place in church where no one goes to then they smoke liao ... haha ..
sleeping so kuku siah haha .... cant sleep de .... they keep playing haha ... =.="

Healing was the most miraculus man .... every fren of mine who was prayed over fell down ..
they were touched by the holy spirit .. =) but when i came to my turn , i was a little scared ..
Jem and two other senior girls prayed over me ... i expected myself to fall but i did not ... sian .. everyone ... my frens including Nicki fell over ... i was the last one left standing ... i had 7 ppl praying over me ... i was a little scared cause i did not fall .... i tot i was abnormal .... they then stopped praying over me later ... i felt thankful to them ba ... cause they sort of prayed over me for very long ... but i did not fall ... but i felt a very strong wind blowing at my legs ... i dont know y ... But after all if u ask me i would say that i can feel the presence of the lord in the entire room..

daidee was on in our domitries at nite haha ... we slept at 3 liddat haha ... so fun ... i brought the cards haha then play and play =)

Pris came the next day , on the second day . Haha Benn told me that Pris is very chio haha .. hmmx expected ba she look good haha =X .... very friendly haha ...
Benn is fond of her lah =.=" ... teach him how to jio her also don want ... aiyo .. fold heart for her also don want .. haha aiyo ... but i think both of them can lah will get together one haha ...

wahaha ... its so fun ... i got to know so many ppl ... new frens ... haha .. i hug so many ppl also haha ... girls =X .... my fist sign spread around liao haha ... alot of facils all fist wif me siah .. the fighter guy also haha ang gong siao guy lah he haha .... =)

I guess i am not hated haha alot of ppl think i am friendly haha !!!! ... anyway its fun haha ... i also remembered consoling steff by buying her a can of drink .. its the least i could do i guess .. =)
i was sort of relucktant to leave the camp ... haiz .. =( gave pris and benn one last big hug and then left the camp wif James ... !!!

2006-11-20T14:21:00.000+08:00

Very sian .... ..... this morning went to church for the confirmation rehersal thingy ... =/

Wa lao ... i kana blamed by Nicki for pang sehing him ... wah .. i also don know that today he confirmed to go with me ti get my confirmation clothes ...
Anyway i said sorry to him liao haha shud be ok le lah ... =p

Gave stef all my chocolates .... hmmmx ... i lied to my mum .. i tols her that i was bringin it to church to eat .. =X ... but gave it to stef .. =.=" ...
But all the chocolates very nice leh ... resisting the temptation of not eating the chocx was so huge .... =( .. Finally give away liao so no worries ..
Aiyo stef sick still want to eat .. don know how to take care of herself ... Anyway hope she likes the chocs =)

I AM NOT A PAI KIA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! .... pls don call me pai kia liao .... i hear untill sick le ...
i am among the best students in my school liao ... and that is very good le ....

Yeah i got the ps2 games liao wo hoo !!! ( GTA 6 [ Liberty City] , Prince of persia [the two thrones] , Onimusha [dawn of dreams] and the best of all Resident Evil 4 .. X)
yeah so i have something to occupy myself during the holidays le wahhaha !!!

Haix .. i feel like asking her out leh ..... but some how something is like holding me back .. and i don know wat the f**k is it ... =( ...

2006-11-19T09:51:00.000+08:00

Getting damn boring ...as the holidays are approaching ... =(
I cant really find any interesting stuff to kill time ...

- Apply for the magic course ??
- Ask my frens out ?? ....
( Sian ... my best friends all like not so close le .... y ?? cause most of them have girlfriend le ... )
Makes me sound more like a despo .. lol i am not .... at first we had 9 ppl in our so called group ..
but now we have about 7 left =.=" ... <>

Charles , Quan Hui , Yu San , Ching Png and Yu Cong have found themselves a girlfriend =) ..
It feels so complicated to be in love ... very ... but on the other hand the feeling of being loved is good too >.< ...
love hurts too i guess ..... haha don say le ...

Why are guys created in such a way that they have the tendency to like girls ?? ...
Well anyway i don think that that particular girl knoes that i am fond of her ... =.=" its ok ... better off this way i guess .. better having her as a fren then not haha .... =P ..

Its so not me to write this in my blog eeeeee =X ... =.=" ... sian lah ... now i go help ppl write testi liao .... then play dota hahahaha !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-14T16:07:00.000+08:00

.... So sian ... A maths O's today ... hmmmx think i will pass ba ... =P
but i lost about 24 marks already ... haix ... nvm there is still a paper 2 ...

Had interview with brother Emanuel also ... haha ..
Questions are : why do you want to be confirmed ??
wat will u do after the confirmation ??
wat will u recieve after the confirmation .. ??
well my answers were kind of stupid i guess
... they are : so that i can become a true catholic and experience god more often in my daily life.
i will be actively involved in the altar boys society.
I said bible ... =X ... anyway the answer is holy spirit lah haha ... =D ...

k lah i go sleep le .. =( .... so sian .... No one wants to bring me to bugis ... =( .. i want to find the shop ... haix .... stef don want reply my email ..... sian le loh ....
don know wat i will do after O's ... slack everyday ... haix ... so cb ..

2006-10-28T13:41:00.000+08:00

Wahahaha !!!!!!!! .... =) ... =P ....
I am happy !!!!!!! =P
y ????? Because i went to study wif stef =X ... haha ... =.="
hehe .. haha ... =X ... lol
first time go out wif her mah ... lol ... cant be happy meh ??

lol ... woke up in the morning at 9 plus i think ...
Awoken by a phone call haha ... by steff ... call and tell me 10.30 am omg ....
in the end she late ..

yesterday i went to limbang to play lan .. =X... haha ...
Then later follow my frens go play basketball ... ... omg ... the time already 6.30pm liao ...
forgot that i told stef to come online at this time ... haiz ....
Ran home .... but not in time lol ... she offline le .... sorry loh ...

Haha today go meet her to study one ... in the end onli study for a few mins onli haha ... i think or maybe half an hour ... then later she follow me go buy book le haha .... no mood to study lah haiz ...

sian .... .... ma de lose dota to andy ... 1 match ... win him once ...
haiz haiz hahahaha .... k la don want blog le ... all kuku stuff ...

2006-10-06T15:47:00.000+08:00

Its the lantern fest today .... .... ma de the weather so hazy .... spoil the mood man ... no lantern festival mood ... =( ..

This moring did not go to school again ... so sian wat ... go to school study nuts man haha .... all teachers tell us to do our own revision ... haha !!!
School is not a condusive learning environment for me lah .... can't do my self study in school , cause i get distracted very easily .. .. luckily my school don provide night study ah ....
nite study = chat session haha x)

Scary siah .... the school called me up today went i was at home omg ... !!! i thought wat siah .... cause i pon school for 4 days liao .... scary man .... haha ( " Hello is felix at home ??" >> "Ya" .. >> "May i know the reason y u were not at school today ?? " .... >> "Oh i stayed home for self study haha !! " ... )
Cheh then i found out from pris later that our school was calling all the absenties to find out if they got food poisoning haha ...... cause other school got it ... =.="
scare me ah thought must go school haha ...

In the evening went to meet Pear , Pris , Xi Teng , Xiang Rui , Derrick , and Kingston haha .... togehter with Jeric ....
Jeric borrowed my clothes to wear haha ... cause y ??? ... He dont have any clothes to wear ... =.=" ... lame man haha ... then he told me not to say that the clothes were mine ... haha
But .... pris and pear bought him a shirt ... kool ... so he did not have to wear mine ...

So long man wait for Miss Thila .... nearly 45 mins i think ... we sat down at the mrt station and chatted for so long omg ... !!! ... pris and pear kept shouting and doing funny funny stuff ... like recording their own voice with a small recorder ... lol so ku ku .. =X haha ...

Wow the entrance fee was $10 ... so damn ex ... some more go in le all the things must pay to play one like e fun fair and food .... wah felt so cheated ....
Anyway did not do anything much there .. haha only the damn tai jian skit haha ..
which consists of Xi Teng , Xiang Rui , Derrick , Kingston , Pearly and Priscilla hahahha !!!! so damn funny the boys acted the tai jians and pearly the princess i think then pris the huang hou haha ..... play hide and seek ... X)X) X() ;) hahahaa LMAO !!

After that went to pizza hut to have dinner ... Miss Thila treated us =) haha ... good good ... =X ... had a few rounds of games .... then we went home ...
Wah still have to send Pearly home , lukily got Xiang and Jeric pei haha ... =(. ... haha then later Xiang , Jeic , Kingston and me ... go home le ... all sat 307 home ... =)

lol dont know whether steff want to pierce ear tomorrow not ... =( ... never confirm timing de .... haiz sian .... later Quan Hui say i never keep my promise ... haiz ...
nvm loh .... i don mind getting 2 ear holes haha ... pierce one with steff and 1 wif Quan Hui loh ...

2006-10-03T16:07:00.000+08:00

Damn ... haven yet got e photos for the class montage ... pearly never come then cannot take it from her .. haizzz ....

The photos very funny haha haha .... i have my fringe tied up and also tied up my hair at the back into a tiny pony tail haha ... pretty kool haha .... but a little gay gay de leh ... haha when i get e photos i will attach them here haha !! ...

pnp did their hair up too ... look like doll like that haha .... quite cute =X .... lol

wah so sway should not have gone to skool this morning ... cause y ?? first thing in the morning got punished by mdm low ... sian diao ... nv greet her then kana scold le ... haha y so particular with e greeting ... then we cant play soccer .. =(
played a lame game when we were punished .... don know wat mi ma one ... then ta ma de always i kana forfiet ... run across the field then come back ... let teacher see we die liao ... cause we cannot walk around ... !!! but it was so damn fun haha ... to defy mdm Low haha .... =X

2006-09-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

its been months since i blogged. anyway, edited some stuff, (:
so bored, lalala~ prelims didn't do very well, but hopefully the o's would turn out better.

2006-09-05T15:07:00.000+08:00

Bad day today lah ...
Ching Png and SY just broke up ... ... And i have to be there to console him this few days ....
They look just like a perfect couple that people imagined ... but why did this happen ...
I had a sense of foreboding on this when they broke and patched the last time ....
knew Ching Png for a long time le .... he is like a brother to me ..
I didn't know that he was so emotional ... damn ... he cried ... couldn't believe this ....
Thats why i say relationship some how or another sucks ... =X ... doesn't mean i don support it ...

Are breakups part and parcel of our lives ?? ..... A breakup means the failure of having a good relationship .... but it doesn't mean the end of the friendship does it ?? ??
Many ppl have this misconception , as in they think they should part ways and stop being friends when they breakup .... Haiz enough le don want say le ....

I go study liao ..... bye bye

2006-09-05T04:57:00.000+08:00

Exams are round the corner ... the PRELIMS !!!!! finaaly its here ...!
Have been slacking quite a bit .... don feel like studying and i don know y ...
Went to the gym just now with Ching Png and his brother .... did some workout there haha ... but none of the workouts there says that it will make a person taller =.=" .. so sian i am still so short ... ppl say i short this and that .. nvm nvm ... it may be a blessing in disgiuse =X haha

Talking about exams, i sort of like it .. you wanna know y ??? haha i hate studying but i love exams ... wierd rite ?? haha .. because the Exams signifies the nearing of the HoLiDaYs hahahahahaaha !!!!! kool man !! i love the O'levels .....
y cant i study ...for some reasons i find myelf stucked to the computer ... not only to play but also to chat wif frens online ... .. waiting for that sum1 to come online ... but .....

Haiz .... am i missing someone ?? ?? well may be i am ba ...
Hmmmx missing someone is good .. , becasue it is a sign that we care for that particular person =) later blog again ba ... gonna haf tuition at 7 pm ...

2006-08-24T14:36:00.000+08:00

Had Breakfast at Macdonald with PPC ( Pris , Pearly & Ching Png )
Went there at 6.30 am in the morning and realised that it only opens at 7 ... damn ... they having some problems o think ..
Bought our breakfast at 7 and rushed to school ... Pearly suggested that we walked ... oh dear already so late le .. ..
Luckily we reached school juxt in time haha ..... so sweaty .. y because i ran to school wif them ..

Had my prelim practical exams today .... Chem was tough.. but Physics was well ok lah ...
I have colour deficiency .. haha so i have a teacher there to help me .. kool rite ?? ..
Oh dear ... must use the filtrate my fren use the residue omg hahaha .. .. .. =.="
After prelims we had to go to the AVA room for quarantine ... 4 hours omg ...
Then after school I went to the street soccer court to play soccer with the 2/9 boys ..
Hmmmx looks like I made up with Jordan ... he offered me his water .. haha thought it was just sacarsism .. Cannot be to paranoid lah .. lol

Having my Bio practical ... tomorrow i think ... S**t .. forgot le haha X)

So sian now got no one to sms le .....
Damn fan ... should i dump the idea of wanting to get closer to her ??
I don want to make her feel annoyed .... haiz ... its so difficult to know wat a girl feel sometimes ... great .....
Should i call her .??... >.= ...
Exams coming and i am having this feeling .. so sucky ..
So sleepy now .. !! ..
Love isn't about possesion ... heard that somewhere ... well maybe its true ...
Admiring her will do ba ... =( ... sian AH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-08-17T03:03:00.000+08:00

Today was kinda boring ... same old stuff . . . woke stef up blah blah blah !!! ...
lol she still nearly late ... haha !!

So sian ... O levels coming must study like hell ... prelims next month =.=" ppl one start le ... lol
Wow .. just remember tomorrow my English O'level oral liao haha .. !! Honestly i am nervous .. but haiz wat to do ?? still have to take wat .....
Hate people who thinks highly of themselves ... wat the hell man , Jordan guai lan me again .. f*** during recess !!! hate it ...
After school had Physics mock exam ... haha i flunked it partialy ba .. cant think le cause too sleepy ..

Haiz ... so fan .. don know y .. !! headache ah ... maybe stress ?? ..
She say she not annoyed by ny nessages .... but i think she is >.< .. d**n ...
Maybe i won't sms her so much le ...
Y do i feel sad ...when she don reply... ?? i also don know...
... s**t ... that kind of feeling is back again ...
Only 2 more lessons ... lol .. then cant see her le lol ...

But now i have got to study ... my aim is to get into SP or a JC< l1r5 =" 20"> ..
I want to take Bio medical or Bio Tech course ... L1B4 = 15 ...
K got to go study my a maths le ... though its late le x(

2006-08-14T19:48:00.000+08:00

Heyx haven told all of u that I became an alarm clock recently rite ??
Haha !! I now wake steff up every morning , haha pretty fun ba …motivates me to wake up earlier … but hoh she sumtimes never reply my sms de x( … (sad) … hahaha but nv mind that lah , cause she gave me a huge lollipop still haven finish makaning !!
Today was totally screwed up .. .. There is someone who is posing as me online , damn .. y ?? I don know …
This person keeps spreading nonsense about me … wat the hell …I even found out that my best fren was also with them …. S**t ..
Are those people jealous ?? or wat ?? …
They always have things to say about what I do … I really think they should take a good look at themselves first … ( calling me a flirt when I talk to girls ?? that is extremely childish )
Not really sure who this guy is .. but I am pretty sure it’s a guy …!
Nvm I will juxt take it easy ba ..
Great … now I know who my true frens are …
English O’level oral coming this Thursday , Hmmmx don think I can study for it I guess … I can't really converse that well with the examiner … Oh Dear !!!! nvm nvm .. I will just relax and read HaHax !!
Btw stef …reply my sms horx !!!! =)

2006-08-13T16:12:00.000+08:00

.... Took me that long i guess .. Finally .. !
...Wat is it now , a crush ?? ..or wat ??
.. Haix always having problems wif my love life .. =(
. This is life .. full of obstacles ..

Well cant blame the guy up there anyway .. can I ??
Anyway i deleted my previous blog , cause it does not happen any more not reality....

Wat now .. new target ?? Oh dear ... maybe ba ... But ....................
She too chio le lahz .. don think she even care a s**t about me ... >.<
Got other guys jio her also ... lol .. how to succeed .. haiz ... so kuku lah me .
I lack self confidence lah ... =(
But she realli super chio leh ... how ?? ... Be frens loh .. then see how ...

Haha enough of this le ... hmmmx today went to church to attend class . Wah time flies class going to end le ... 2 more lessons ... kool i looking forward to the confirmation camp haha !!

After class come back loh ... did some revision on my A.maths haha . Been slacking quite a bit this few days ... Chinese O'levels got a C5 .. pretty cool ya .. haha i passed ..
But i will retake de lah .. haha

K le lah next time blog again ... time for mass le BYE BYE !!!!